Hard Truth

Here’s the hard truth. I have been avoiding writing a blog for many reasons, but mainly, it comes down to total fear! I keep saying, “I am not a writer” and “People will not take me seriously.” Then I woke up one day, and I heard a voice that said, “Guess what? You are the director of your life. You get to choose everything, so write from your heart!”

Fear Be Gone. Welcome Hard Truth

I can get completely riddled with insecurity and fear, which keep me from going for what I want. This was not always the case. I was quite the adventurer and go-getter in my twenties, and I thought anything was possible. It was not until I hit my forties that something shifted. All of a sudden, there was doubt that created isolation and insecurity about everything.

This was not like me. It has taken me several years and a lot of different seminars, books, and coaches to understand that this is NORMAL! At the age of forty, I found myself broke and divorced and with no job or career (besides being a full-time mom). Worst of all, I lost all desire to go outside and do the activities I love, like hiking, walking in nature, running, biking, and yoga. In a way, I was choosing to be stuck. I was also incredibly sad.

Hollywood’s Who’s Who

I had a different vision in my twenties. Running around with Hollywood’s Who’s Who of music and entertainment., living a glamorous life (or so it seemed), thinking it was always going to last.

I thought I am an aspiring actress, I was married to an Olympic Gold Medalist, we had three kids, and life was supposed to be happily ever after, right?

The truth is that I wasn’t grateful for any of it, not really. I had the occasional “Awe thanks” moments, but I wasn’t “living in gratitude.”

What I’m Most Grateful For

For my first blog post, I wanted to start off with expressing gratitude for my life and the opportunity to share it with you, as well as my new journey and all of my mistakes, successes, dark times, and truths that got me to where I am now, “aging gracefully” at fifty-seven. Being single, happy, fit, and successful is great, but most of all, I am grateful!

Today, I am focusing on what I have. I have a love for my life—this beautiful life that I live every day. I am grateful for the hard days because those are the days that force me to grow. When I experience setbacks, I understand that they will not last forever. I mess up, but then I go back and try again.

I still have moments of feeling anxious, but I have learned to breathe through it. I still sometimes wake up in the middle of the night and think, “OMG, I am alone and have no one to share this with,” and then guess what? The hard truth hits me: I am never alone. I just get lonely sometimes, and there is a big difference between being lonely and being all alone.

Welcome To The Journey Of Hard Truth

Today, I am not alone as I have three beautiful adult children to share my life with and many friends who lift me up when I am down. I have my coaches and mentors, and with all the guidance I receive, I aspire today to live in growth and make contributions to others, wherever and whenever appropriate.

I am so grateful to you all and grateful to be sharing my journey with you!

Stay tuned as I get completely out of my comfort zone and write a blog post once a week with the hope that my story, experiences, and struggles can inspire someone who might be suffering.

Thank you,