The Escape Artist

An escape artist experiences crazy feelings. For instance, these feelings might show up as tightness or shortness of breath, sleepless nights, confusion, blurred or dizzy thoughts. Worst of all,  an escape artist could experience the sense of going in circles, trying to decide where to start. Do any of these feelings resonate with you? Keep reading.

I have suffered from these feelings my entire life. Most of that time, I had no idea what I was suffering from. I blamed it on all sorts of things, such as:

1. Bad customer service
2. A relationship breakup
3. My divorce
4. An argument 
5. A disagreement,
6. My kids
7. A funny look from someone
8. The weather

In addition, I was always finding any excuse for my problems. Worst, not knowing that it was my past trauma causing me to fell down, even depressed. What I thought was buried kept popping up and causing havoc.

Escaping From Trauma

Not knowing that I was suffering from trauma. Specifcally, the trauma that my body had endured through the years. First, when I fell facedown and breaking my nose when I was five years old. It was so bad it took seven reconstructive surgeries to restore it to normal. Second, being thrown off a horse when I was eighteen. Believe it or not, I got into a horrible car crash  the same year. Getting hit head-on by a guy who was late for work.

I never took into consideration that these would be “traumas.” Howvever, I knew that my emotional trauma existed. In spite of the perfect “escape artist.” Constantly, reinventing myself, never thinking about the past.

Past Wounds As An Escape Artist 

As hard as I tried to escape my past, my wounds, trauma, hurts, and failures would reappear. It happened when I least expected it. Those feelings would emerge when I was just doing nothing. My heart will race or I feel “weird,” like I am getting sick.

These feelings are traumas that need to be dealt with. I, the escape artist, thought I could run away from this. While it is a relief to know that what I suffer from is normal, not knowing what to do when these feelings come out is a major stress.

I went on a journey to get answers. As the saying goes, “happiness is an inside job.” I just got tired of being sick and tired. Ever feel that way?

My journey started with recognizing the patterns. It wasn’t until recently that my patterns became very clear! More importantly, it was evident my patterns needed to be interrupted. My escape artist needed a long, overdue break.

The Journey Begins

Howvever, in November 2020, having the realization that if I really wanted things to change, I had to stop the patterns. I had to come up with a program of my own, not a quick fix.

To all my escape artists out there, if you are looking for a quick fix, this program is not for you. Likewise, this program follows guidelines that keep me in the present moment. Things that makes me feel like I want to escape had to be removed. I make sure to include things that makes me calm and happy. Lastly, I do not believe in diets either. However, I do believe in giving my body the most healthful foods. There is no quick fix for happiness. Instead, it is a journey.

 My Escape Artist Self-Healing Tips 

You may be wondering what I do. Here are my top five tips for self-healing, and guess what? They are free and they work:

1. Sit in silence.
2. Read or listen to inspiring books. My top three right now are The Power of Intention by Wayne Dyer, The Surrender Experiment by Michael A. Singer, and You Are a Badass by Jen Sincero. I have read each of these a few times.
3. Stretch or do yoga.
4. Go for a walk (no cell phones allowed).
5. Turn off your cell phone at 7 p.m. and wake up between 6 and 6:30 a.m.

Those are my top five, but I have a lot more. In my future posts, I will be sharing my entire program. There are many fitness programs, too, but this is what I consider an emotional program.

Stay Connected

Tired of being the escape artist? Would you like to follow a program to heal your emotional health? Stay connected by reading my blogs each week. Above all, ask questions, they’re welcomed. I would love to hear from you!

All my life I said, “I got this.” This served me well in a lot of my successes. Just not in my emotional life! I needed coaches, trainers, and advisors for my emotional health. I am happy to share my journey here. Lastly, you are not alone. I am here to support you as we support one another.

Say goodbye to the escape artist and hello to the healing journey.